Our fears can teach us a lot, if we're willing to explore them. Sometimes we aren't even aware of certain fears until we are directly faced with the experience of them. That's why trying new things is so important. Once we're aware of fears on a conscious level, we have the opportunity to work through them, and with that, break free from the limitations that have been formed because of them.
I have a fear of the unknown, especially when it comes to large bodies of water. An wave of panic rushes over me when I am in deep water with little to no visibility. All the while I can see what's below the surface, I'm fine. But the awareness of the depth without being able to see what's down there, is difficult for me to process.
So I consider how it is that I could I possibly hope to embody true balance within my Self when I carry two conflicting beliefs?
On the one hand I find myself drawn to water. I feel an overwhelming sense of peace whenever I am near to the ocean or some other majestic waterbody. I love to feel water and be in it, yet there is a blockage of some kind when it comes to surrendering fully to it. Every part of my being wants to embrace it and let go, but my heart races in fear.
Water is highly symbolic of our emotional body and our intuitive power, so I find myself intrigued. Until now I percieved myself as being open and willing to explore the depths of my emotional wounding and honouring my abilities, but entering the water again today has stirred something in me.
I pause in curious reflection, as I sit in the realisation that there is still a great deal more to uncover; and this is being reflected back to me in my lived experiences as a message.
My fear is calling me deeper into myself.
It's calling me to heal.
It's calling me to surrender.
Am I afraid of being all that I'm truly capable of?
Today I honoured my souls desires over and above my fears, and I swam across deep, clay filled water to be immersed in the waterfall. Fearful thoughts rushed into my mind, BUT I DID IT.
~ Fear is nothing but a wall built of illusions; when we shine the light of awareness onto them, their power dissipates ~ Blaise x
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